Confusion collides thyself..

Here I am again trying to paint a smile in my face but deep inside the pain banging inside, tears periled to fall but I try to hide it from the people around me. I don’t know who’s to blame, is it -myself for being so hard or the person who hurt me. I was staring the monitor in front of me but my mind fled somewhere elss, I was intently breaking down the situations and the things happen in my life but it seems I have a hard time in varying things…hahay. Yeah, I am bit tired with this confusion that I have, the two persona of myself tells different things and I don’t know which one to follow and all I want to do is to set back and shut up…hahay…