Saying GOODBYE is much more painful when you know that there’s no turning back and the person is already going on. Yesterday was such a big bang to me when he’s telling me that he is inlove I thought it was some of his naughty jokes but it was true. At first I don’t know how to react the news he told me I just sit and stare on the monitor of my PC. I was really speechless and I don’t know how respond on it. With a shaking hand I replied saying that I’m happy for him but deep inside I was deeply hurt. I know it’s been a month that we decided to remain friends but his mistake is he still make me believed that he’s still love me. Through out day I felt I was really breaking but I try to be fine as much as I can, as usual a painted smile is on my face. When I told my friend Maris about it she’s telling me “owss kadali man sad” I just answer him because he’s a guy. I keep on talking to Nelson so that I can divert my attention but when Nelson left to get water. Maris mouthed me words that I almost burst in she’s saying “Dai ok raka?” I was deeply touched by her words. With a smile assured her that I’m fine though I know deep inside that I’m not. I was questioning myself why I react that way and why I was hurt then I realized that hes still hold a special feeling within me even how many times I deny it. And it was slowly comes out the time I know his story I know it was painful but I still believe that theres a reason for everything. And GOD had purpose why I had to experience another pain and I know in his time I will be fine.