Every Now and then...

"Every now and then, you still cross on my mind...I don't why..but sometimes I was thinking, then I ever cross your mind even once in a while"












It's been a week since I go back to work again, I am supposed to be happy but honestly I am not because it's not the same place I work before, literally it is but the people we used to bond it's not the same.  Few heads were left in the office, the situation that we had is so sad to think, but we can't do nothing about this. Some of my friends was assigned to another departments though we can still see each other every now and then...haissstt... But this morning I was so tense, I shout out something in my FB account, actually that phrase didn't refer to anyone,haha... I was reading one of my unfinished stories then that word catch my attention thatswhy I post it in my FB account. I was really surprised when someone in my past also commented on that post. I don't know if he was really teasing me or anything, he claiming that he was that person but slightly true...nyhahaha... But I can't figure out why he was doing that thing, we are really good friends and he's happily married with someone else, we still talk every one and then. He was the usual mike I know a bit conceited and mayabang..lol...but if you know him in person, definitely he's not that kind of person but rather that's one of his sense of humor.lol...

such a boring day...

It's been 2 weeks since the last time I go to the office, yes!!!,  I was really bored, mixed emotions and everything. Maybe I'm not used to stay at home all day and night such a bad feeling. Last week, we tried maybe at least 5 companies with all fairness the exams and interviews was really hard..tsk..tsk. I miss my work, my PC and everything. I hate staying at home and there's no one to talk or maybe hindi lang me sanay. I became more emotional these past few days, I'm helpless, I felt that everything was against all my plans. I can't blame my friends who can't be there for me all the time since they're busy with their own life. Or I used with someone who always be there for me, someone who always ask me if I'm ok, or if I eat already, and definitely I miss that someone. It's been a month since the last time we have a proper communication and recently I noticed that we talk so rarely because I became so busy with my new challenge and maybe hes also busy doing his thing, and but I trully miss him. Since tinamad ako mg english ayaw ko na tuloy mgkwento,haha. But last week even we are tired in trying but we really have fun the kaba during interviews, then feeling if you pass that part then you have to proceed to another step then you realize that the technical exam is more difficult than the interview.hahaha. But the feeling is so great, the feeling of numbness that you can't even feel that you're hungry already even you're not eating for 8 hours..haha.. And then the destruction you feel because the interviewer was really handsome to the highest level...hahaha. Nakakatawa pala pag bored ka, kung ano ano maisip mo sa harap ng laptop mo, hinahalungkot ko na lahat ng website ng mga favorite authors ko para mambasa lang..haha... but I'm really bored and I realized the really meaning of this quotes...

when it rains, it pours and it works both ways...

Not all good things last..

While I was walking I feel the numbness, I only have 3 hours slept I guess, my tears keep falling every now and then. I know it was birthday but I don't feel any happiness, all I know I was so sad. I've been in that project for almost 7 years and I saw friends go one by one and the're are some stay and I'm one of those. And then in a sudden it was going down and we have to go in separate lives. I felt the future is uncertain, fears and worries strikes me I know I'm not the only one who felt this. I was thinking what happen next, I'm back to zero haunting for another job. Darn, I thought I'm not gonna do this but here I am..haissst... but this is life sometimes we are on top and sometimes you're on the other side. And yesterday was my birthday I was surprised some of my college friends still remembers that it was my birthday and I'm really glad. And of course there's someone who makes my day not so darn sad...hehe..I don't expect anything but still he makes way to make me smile and I'm really glad despite everything happens to me on that day. Thanks to him...hehe