A glimpse of yesterday...

For the past months, I've been trying to write again. I've been finding ways in how to go back to my nature but somehow time won’t give me in. Everytime I tried to catch some words to write, suddenly I will become empty…hahaha…just like now... :D

Instead of pushing myself to write something which I can’t. I just read some of my works before. This one really catches my attention, as I remember I wrote this poem when I thought, I was really falling inlove with that friend of mine…hahaha

Just a glance with those times. I fall with the thoughts, do I really fall inlove with that person…hmmm…maybe?…hahaha.

Btw, here’s the poem…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htvm-YCDp-A

Silent Cry of the Heart

You sit next to me

With the eyes thats so lonely

Then I ask you Why?

Without any word you just embraced me

And you said SHE LEFT ME

I’m speechless

I can’t think of any soothing words

To allay the burden

I embraced you so tight

I ask myself why did she left him so easy

As I look into your weary eyes

Shadows of pain mulled

Half smiling you said maybe Im not good to her

I just hold your hand and smiled at you

And said Maybe you are too good for her

You just sigh

Pain is all over in your eyes

As I stared with your nostalgic face

I wanted to tell you

How much I love you

And how painful is

Everytime you were with me

But you were talking about her

How much you love and treasured her

And why you can’t see all those pains

Maybe Im just a mirror of a friend for you

Someone you can lean on to

Someone who can make you smile

Someone who will always be there when you cry

But, it will always be like this?

Loving and hoping that someday

You’re gonna be mine…

♥♥♥ I've been thinking the person who brought my first heartache...hahaha. But I'm really glad he's really happy with his daughter and wife.

C H A N G E S

It’s been raining outside, the sound of the water falls at the attic is like a sweet music in my ear. So many untold stories, I want to utter. It’s been a while since I want to write something, so many things happened with my life: in work, love and family. I don’t want to elaborate each one of them but it teaches so many lessons, it makes stronger, better and teaches me to value more every people I may with.

Like to what happened to my mom and sister, it taught me to appreciate them more than anyone else. Indeed, realization flumped me they are my greatest treasure that I should be kept in my journey.

At first my work became a burden to me maybe because I don’t want to embrace the new challenge given to me. Well, no one can blamed me dealing with different people is not easy as one, two, three. Everyday becomes a struggle to me not only in dealing with unlike attitudes but also the pressure given by your superiors. But as time goes by I learned to bargain each one of them. Prayer helps me understand, and it guides me the right thing to do. 

*** Accept every changes that comes, cos it can bring you somewhere which can help to be more better.

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Recently, I have heard a lot of good things about the work of Mr. Paulo Coelho, one of the bestselling authors at the present time. I was curious about it since my ex co-workers keep talking about it. Then eagerness come, I need to buy one of his book but but the price is too expensive to me...hahaha. I have read already some of his inspiring quotes in many networking sites like: Facebook, Instagram and Twitter as well. And yes, indeed it was really great, and pushes some more to read even just one of his work...so...so...I end up downloading eBooks to one of his books the Alchemist.

The books talks about the journey of a boy who travel just to find the treasures whom told by a fortune teller. It also insight who to appreciate every little thing that we have.

I have read the first part of the book, and its already an impact, so many lessons about life and everything. I am excited to finish this book and find out what's gonna happened to boy and the treasure he's been looking.

Step back...take a breath and soar again...

Too confident it's not good co's one day, it will just slap onto your face. It will teach you to step down from your highness.  In my new field, I was praised always that I am good on it, maybe I am but my mistake it boost my confidence too much. And now that I was corrected it bruise my pride a bit. I was hurt totally but the good thing on it, it teach me to sit back and accept my mistake.

I want to sit back...take a deep breath and one day I will soar again...

Lesson learned: If you've been praised don't put it in your head, it can bring you nowhere...

Just a thought...

It's been a while since the last time I felt the urge to write again in this blog, yes!, here I am trying to write again. I miss everything about writing, the feeling you put everytime you write, and the happiness you can brought it in you. 

Many things happened in my life since 2013 got in, a lot of changes, some of them are good while others is in the contrary side of the story. I tried to open myself to someone else, I tried to trust and love again. So far everything was good. Yes, I am happy with him despite our own flaws we still tried to understand each other.

As I open myself with others, I learn to let go someone in my past. It's been a while since the last time we see other and talk. He's a friend and everything, until such time we step up the friendship that we have. He courted me, yes, we came into dating but I don't know what happened why it didn't work for us. But I know he's always been a part of me, before christmas we still manage to talk and he said maybe after 2 years. But within a span of years we didn't see other we still talk, give advises and he keep on warning me with the guys I be with..haha... I know hes with someone else but I still surprised when he said "he's getting married". I was stunned with the thought but things had just happened. And then he said he wanted to see me and I said yes. Were having dinner together with his fiancee, it was awkward...haha... But I still manage  to make things easier for us ako pah..dinaan sa daldal...haha..

But before we met I was thinking of something to give, for how many days I was searching until I end up to give him a book entitled Finding Refuge and Strength by Harold J. Sala. In my mind, I want to give something that can help him in every way cos I'm not there anymore (amards...haha)...

Goodbye 2012 and hello 2013

2012 it's been a great year for me, many things has happened. Some of those taught me how to be stronger in every struggles that will come in my way. Many times I fall, cried, hurt, fooled and LEARNED. But, I still stand at the end of every pages of my book. 

And I want to embrace 2013 with a full courage that I can face all the challenges that comes in my way.

And 2012 thanks for the memories....

Inferiority strikes

Mixed emotions strikes me...at some time I was thinking I am inlove and in a while I am broken hearted...haha...

Some love stories ends while others just started, while some it has to end before it started....

Yes, I don't like this feeling I have right now. Inferiority strikes me, well it's not new to me to feel this, many times I've been in this struggle until such time I learn to smile at it but this time I can't handle the feeling anymore maybe because it is came from the person special to me. I wanted to shut up and sat down in the corner and the let the feeling be gone.